Just a real quick update to let you all know that I got the biopsy results back from the dermatologist. The freckle they removed was benign and nothing to worry about! It had a few days where it was getting infected, but it's starting to look a lot better and doesn't hurt so much to put pressure on it. We're huge SilverSol fans in this house... It's better than Neosporin!
I'll post again when something new and/or exciting happens!
Take care :)
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Two and a half weeks later...
Hola!
So I know I said I would update after the brachytherapy, but I was expecting to be doing this sooner than 2 and a half weeks after the fact... Sorry about that! I'm sure you can tell that I'm awful about getting on here and updating, so I'm sure you are not too surprised to see that I wasn't on here updating as soon as the treatment ended.
Well, the brachytherapy procedure itself went really well. I was there for about 7 hours, but most of that time was recovery time and visiting with the EXCELLENT nursing staff in between CT scans and threading attempts. They ended up using a "good sized" amount of radiation in a total of 3 whole minutes. Kind of a blast of radiation in a short amount of time. The idea is that it would be enough to not need to have to go back and do it again at a later date... Hopefully all the stenosis will be radiated and break down. So far so good! Don't get me wrong, I had a very rough 10 days or so after the brachytherapy. I don't know if it was coincidental that I caught some awful stomach bug the evening of the treatment, or my body had some strange reaction to the radiation, but I spent nearly 12 hours being horribly nauseous and vomiting what seemed like continuously. I was discharged from the recovery with instructions to take my oral pain med and my anti-nausea med (Phenergan) once I got home; yeah, that didn't happen. I couldn't keep anything down, so 3 hours of continuous vomiting later Benito drove me back to the hospital so I can be seen in the ER in hopes of them starting an IV and giving me something through that to stop the vomiting and control my pain. Everyone knows that being post transplant you expect to be high priority when visiting the ER and should be taken straight back to avoid all the sickies. We post transplantees avoid the ER at all costs, so it's a big deal if we are seen in one. Well, after 4 hours sitting in the ER waiting room being told "you're next" and watching my blood pressure rise by the hour (surely because of my pain increasing w/out being treated) we decided to just go home and hope that the nausea lets up enough to where I can deal with it myself. It ended up letting up enough later to where I could hold down the Phenergan and later on I attempted and succeeded to hold down my pain medicine. It's really too bad it got that bad though and without the help I needed. (It is NOT fun to vomit continuously for almost 12 hours! Talk about a migraine!!)
So here I am about 2 and a half weeks later and I THINK so far my airway is staying pretty much open. I still get wheezy, but my breathing is overall staying okay. When I go outside in the cold air I can still feel my airway tightening, but I started taking an allergy medication that may help with the asthma as well, so fingers crossed that helps that problem.
I had a full set of PFTs done on Wednesday of last week and my fev1 (lung capacity) is up to 35%, with my FEF 25-75 (small airways) at 10%!! That's about a 2% increase, so yay!! My PFTs have honestly not been this high in over a year, so this is really good news.
On Thursday of last week I had a Dermatology skin screening. Since I'm on immunosuppressant’s every day of my life and now that I'm doing the Photopheresis treatments my risk for skin cancers are much higher than a "normie" (non-transplantees). I've had a few suspicious spots on my hands and arm that a Dr froze with a liquid nitrogen gun a few months ago, but it was definitely time to get a full body scan done by a "professional". They went ahead and froze a spot on top of my right hand that has been problematic for a while, a spot on my chest that showed up about 3 months ago, and a spot on my right cheek (sideburn area if I were a man) that just popped up about 2 weeks ago and has since doubled in size. They called these Pre-cancerous Squamous Cell spots. If the spots come back I'm supposed to let them know and we'll try freezing AGAIN. Otherwise they saw a dark freckle on the bottom of my left foot (in the arch area, so luckily I'm not putting pressure on it) and decided to go ahead and biopsy and remove it right there in clinic, no warning whatsoever. To say I was nervous would be an understatement. As it turned out the only part that hurt was the lidocaine shot they gave me to numb the area first. Then they scraped away the freckle and put it into a little specimen cup and followed up by cauterizing the hole in my foot. I should get the results to the biopsy within the next week or so. Attached is the rad photo of what it looked like the next day when we put a fresh band aid on it. Cool, huh? ;)
On a side note, the excellent nurse who was in charge of my care at the Radiation Oncology dept during my brachytherapy treatment called me two days after the treatment to follow up and see how I was doing. He said that he saw that I had been waiting since September for a referral to go through and have an appointment made for the pain management clinic. So after about 6 months waiting (and 3 referrals put in by 2 different doctors) this nurse who barely knew me was able to call on my behalf and get them to set me up with an appointment! I got a phone call the following day from the pain management clinic ready to set up an appointment! The soonest they can get me in is mid-April, but I'm still so happy to have an appointment! Jean (my rad-onc nurse) is going to get a giant Thank You card when I go back in for a follow-up appointment! He did the impossible for me and I'm so extremely grateful. I'm so so SO tired of being on pain medication that only works about half the time; I'm really hoping that these doctors can help come up with an idea on how to treat my chronic pain w/out medication. My goal is to eventually wean off of the medication and NOT need it, so wish me luck! I'm kinda interested in accupuncture, so we'll see what these drs have to say about it.
That's about it! I'll update when / if anything new comes up!
Meanwhile, be nice and don't do anything I would do! :D
So I know I said I would update after the brachytherapy, but I was expecting to be doing this sooner than 2 and a half weeks after the fact... Sorry about that! I'm sure you can tell that I'm awful about getting on here and updating, so I'm sure you are not too surprised to see that I wasn't on here updating as soon as the treatment ended.
Well, the brachytherapy procedure itself went really well. I was there for about 7 hours, but most of that time was recovery time and visiting with the EXCELLENT nursing staff in between CT scans and threading attempts. They ended up using a "good sized" amount of radiation in a total of 3 whole minutes. Kind of a blast of radiation in a short amount of time. The idea is that it would be enough to not need to have to go back and do it again at a later date... Hopefully all the stenosis will be radiated and break down. So far so good! Don't get me wrong, I had a very rough 10 days or so after the brachytherapy. I don't know if it was coincidental that I caught some awful stomach bug the evening of the treatment, or my body had some strange reaction to the radiation, but I spent nearly 12 hours being horribly nauseous and vomiting what seemed like continuously. I was discharged from the recovery with instructions to take my oral pain med and my anti-nausea med (Phenergan) once I got home; yeah, that didn't happen. I couldn't keep anything down, so 3 hours of continuous vomiting later Benito drove me back to the hospital so I can be seen in the ER in hopes of them starting an IV and giving me something through that to stop the vomiting and control my pain. Everyone knows that being post transplant you expect to be high priority when visiting the ER and should be taken straight back to avoid all the sickies. We post transplantees avoid the ER at all costs, so it's a big deal if we are seen in one. Well, after 4 hours sitting in the ER waiting room being told "you're next" and watching my blood pressure rise by the hour (surely because of my pain increasing w/out being treated) we decided to just go home and hope that the nausea lets up enough to where I can deal with it myself. It ended up letting up enough later to where I could hold down the Phenergan and later on I attempted and succeeded to hold down my pain medicine. It's really too bad it got that bad though and without the help I needed. (It is NOT fun to vomit continuously for almost 12 hours! Talk about a migraine!!)
So here I am about 2 and a half weeks later and I THINK so far my airway is staying pretty much open. I still get wheezy, but my breathing is overall staying okay. When I go outside in the cold air I can still feel my airway tightening, but I started taking an allergy medication that may help with the asthma as well, so fingers crossed that helps that problem.
I had a full set of PFTs done on Wednesday of last week and my fev1 (lung capacity) is up to 35%, with my FEF 25-75 (small airways) at 10%!! That's about a 2% increase, so yay!! My PFTs have honestly not been this high in over a year, so this is really good news.
On Thursday of last week I had a Dermatology skin screening. Since I'm on immunosuppressant’s every day of my life and now that I'm doing the Photopheresis treatments my risk for skin cancers are much higher than a "normie" (non-transplantees). I've had a few suspicious spots on my hands and arm that a Dr froze with a liquid nitrogen gun a few months ago, but it was definitely time to get a full body scan done by a "professional". They went ahead and froze a spot on top of my right hand that has been problematic for a while, a spot on my chest that showed up about 3 months ago, and a spot on my right cheek (sideburn area if I were a man) that just popped up about 2 weeks ago and has since doubled in size. They called these Pre-cancerous Squamous Cell spots. If the spots come back I'm supposed to let them know and we'll try freezing AGAIN. Otherwise they saw a dark freckle on the bottom of my left foot (in the arch area, so luckily I'm not putting pressure on it) and decided to go ahead and biopsy and remove it right there in clinic, no warning whatsoever. To say I was nervous would be an understatement. As it turned out the only part that hurt was the lidocaine shot they gave me to numb the area first. Then they scraped away the freckle and put it into a little specimen cup and followed up by cauterizing the hole in my foot. I should get the results to the biopsy within the next week or so. Attached is the rad photo of what it looked like the next day when we put a fresh band aid on it. Cool, huh? ;)
On a side note, the excellent nurse who was in charge of my care at the Radiation Oncology dept during my brachytherapy treatment called me two days after the treatment to follow up and see how I was doing. He said that he saw that I had been waiting since September for a referral to go through and have an appointment made for the pain management clinic. So after about 6 months waiting (and 3 referrals put in by 2 different doctors) this nurse who barely knew me was able to call on my behalf and get them to set me up with an appointment! I got a phone call the following day from the pain management clinic ready to set up an appointment! The soonest they can get me in is mid-April, but I'm still so happy to have an appointment! Jean (my rad-onc nurse) is going to get a giant Thank You card when I go back in for a follow-up appointment! He did the impossible for me and I'm so extremely grateful. I'm so so SO tired of being on pain medication that only works about half the time; I'm really hoping that these doctors can help come up with an idea on how to treat my chronic pain w/out medication. My goal is to eventually wean off of the medication and NOT need it, so wish me luck! I'm kinda interested in accupuncture, so we'll see what these drs have to say about it.
That's about it! I'll update when / if anything new comes up!
Meanwhile, be nice and don't do anything I would do! :D
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Brachytherapy tomorrow
Just a quick update:
I'm scheduled for that first brachytherapy treatment tomorrow afternoon. After talking again with the radiation oncology doctor yesterday I feel much better about the actual procedure. This is still new territory and the risks do scare me, but I'm hopeful that I may be able to breathe better after all this is done. Please, if you will, say an extra prayer or keep me in your good thoughts tomorrow that everything goes smoothly and I get to go home that night as planned. And of course, pray that this treatment does what we hope it will do, which is break down the scar tissue that's blocking my airway, so I can start taking full advantage of what's left of my lungs. If I could open that airway I won't feel so darn sick all the time and I won't feel like retransplant is just around the corner.
Thanks everyone! I'll try and let you know how it all went as soon as I can, but please don't be worried if you haven't heard back from me in a week. A normal bronch usually knocks me on my bum for a few days, so I expect this will be not much easier.
-Leah
I'm scheduled for that first brachytherapy treatment tomorrow afternoon. After talking again with the radiation oncology doctor yesterday I feel much better about the actual procedure. This is still new territory and the risks do scare me, but I'm hopeful that I may be able to breathe better after all this is done. Please, if you will, say an extra prayer or keep me in your good thoughts tomorrow that everything goes smoothly and I get to go home that night as planned. And of course, pray that this treatment does what we hope it will do, which is break down the scar tissue that's blocking my airway, so I can start taking full advantage of what's left of my lungs. If I could open that airway I won't feel so darn sick all the time and I won't feel like retransplant is just around the corner.
Thanks everyone! I'll try and let you know how it all went as soon as I can, but please don't be worried if you haven't heard back from me in a week. A normal bronch usually knocks me on my bum for a few days, so I expect this will be not much easier.
-Leah
Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Eeeek! Has it really been over 5 months since I've posted on here?!? I'm SO sorry if I worried anyone. I'm doing okay... I've definitely had less ups than downs in the past 5 months and it's just made me feel like crawling into a cave and hibernating until everything works out on it's own, but of course I can't do that now, can I? ;)
Only 2 weeks after my last post I lost another very close friend to Cystic Fibrosis. Christen and I met at CF camp back in 1990 and have been pen-pals ever since. A few years ago she switched hospitals and started seeing the same doctor I go to, so when she was admitted into the hospital I was able to come visit and see her again after so many years just communicating via email, facebook, or telephone. I was "lucky" enough to be able to spend a few days with Christen prior to her passing away and had some long talks to her and her mom about Christen being ready to leave this world. Although talking about that with her was very difficult (especially after having said goodbye to Kristina only weeks prior), I'm glad I got to have that time with her and it helped me knowing that she was ready. I wish I could say the passing of my two closest CF friends wasn't completely devistating to me, but it was and I'm still grieving over the loss of two such beautiful and loving friends. It breaks my heart knowing that I will not see their smiling faces again until it's my own time to leave this world (which, for the record, is a very long time from now).
So as you can imagine, my holidays were difficult to get through, but they came and went and I turned another year older just before the New Year. I'm so extremely grateful to everyone who has helped me get to this age that I never expected to see. Life really is precious!! After tomorrow I drop down to every 6 weeks for the photopheresis treatments and I'll be completely finished by July! So far it looks like they are keeping the rejection from progressing any more and I haven't lost any significant lung function since last May!! I'm really so happy I finally found a doctor willing to treat me and not tell me retransplant was my only option. Yes, it's nice to know I can get another transplant later down the road when I really need one, but that time is not now, thank God. Besides the rejection at bay, my health has been really rough the past 5 months. The stenosis (narrowing) in my airway has been giving me a lot of problems so I've gone in twice now to have it lasered to open it up more and although I can feel them lasering the airway (burns and I can actually smell my lungs burning), and I feel pretty awful for a good week afterward, I feel like this is the longest periods of relief I've gotten after any intervention with the airway. I still don't have a long time of feeling able to breathe well, but it's better than not lasering. I was referred to a radiation oncology doctor in December and Benito and I both talked with her about a treatment called Brachytherapy. Aparently one doctor says they've done this treatment previously on at least one patient whom had "somewhat" similar circumstances as I, and another doctor is saying no, they've never done this before, but they are willing to try it (in theory it should work). So the brachytherapy machine was down back in December and they said they expect it to be back up and running late January. I haven't heard back from them about scheduling it, but whenever it gets scheduled I am to be scheduled for a bronch and lasering no more than 5 days prior because they want my airway to be at it's most open during the brachytherapy. Now, here is what brachytherapy is as I understand it: Brachytherapy is a form of topical radiation to a specific area, in my case the stenosis in my right main bronchi. They'll go down in my lung with a tube and figure out exactly how far down said tube needs to be in order to be "sitting" on the stenosis. Once it's placed they'll x-ray and double check it's in the correct place and tape it down to my face so it can not move. After the tube is secure they'll thread a wire which has a radioactive tip on it down the tube and have it come out just at the end of the tube so the radioactive tip will be on the stenosis. They will leave the radioactive wire there for however much time they've calculated is enough time to be beneficial, but not enough to do serious damage then pull the wire and tube back out. The idea is that the radiation will break down the cells of the scar tissue that is my stenosis and after a period of time it will have broken all the scar tissue cells down and I'll have an open airway again. The tough part is knowing how much is enough, but not too much to cause the good cells that are my actual airway to break down. Oh, and I have a much higher risk of lung cancer after 10yrs they said if I do this treatment. So, it's something to think about, and it does sound kind of desperate, but I AM desperate. I am so tired of feeling like I'm ready for another transplant when I still have 15% more lung function than I did at the time of my first transplant. This stenosis at it's worse (which is like 90% of the time) feels like an extremely SEVERE asthma attack in which medications do not help. So, I ask you, wouldn't you be desperate too?
I have day 2 of my photo treatments for this month tomorrow and I need to get to bed. They still take a lot out of me and I feel like I could sleep for a few days after each set of treatments. Again, I'm very sorry I took so long to get on here and update you all. I hope you can forgive me... It's just been a very hard year already ;)
This year I'll be leading a Cystic Fibrosis Great Strides walk team again, so if you would be so kind to visit my Great Strides page....
www.cff.org/Great_Strides/leahbailey92504
Only 2 weeks after my last post I lost another very close friend to Cystic Fibrosis. Christen and I met at CF camp back in 1990 and have been pen-pals ever since. A few years ago she switched hospitals and started seeing the same doctor I go to, so when she was admitted into the hospital I was able to come visit and see her again after so many years just communicating via email, facebook, or telephone. I was "lucky" enough to be able to spend a few days with Christen prior to her passing away and had some long talks to her and her mom about Christen being ready to leave this world. Although talking about that with her was very difficult (especially after having said goodbye to Kristina only weeks prior), I'm glad I got to have that time with her and it helped me knowing that she was ready. I wish I could say the passing of my two closest CF friends wasn't completely devistating to me, but it was and I'm still grieving over the loss of two such beautiful and loving friends. It breaks my heart knowing that I will not see their smiling faces again until it's my own time to leave this world (which, for the record, is a very long time from now).
So as you can imagine, my holidays were difficult to get through, but they came and went and I turned another year older just before the New Year. I'm so extremely grateful to everyone who has helped me get to this age that I never expected to see. Life really is precious!! After tomorrow I drop down to every 6 weeks for the photopheresis treatments and I'll be completely finished by July! So far it looks like they are keeping the rejection from progressing any more and I haven't lost any significant lung function since last May!! I'm really so happy I finally found a doctor willing to treat me and not tell me retransplant was my only option. Yes, it's nice to know I can get another transplant later down the road when I really need one, but that time is not now, thank God. Besides the rejection at bay, my health has been really rough the past 5 months. The stenosis (narrowing) in my airway has been giving me a lot of problems so I've gone in twice now to have it lasered to open it up more and although I can feel them lasering the airway (burns and I can actually smell my lungs burning), and I feel pretty awful for a good week afterward, I feel like this is the longest periods of relief I've gotten after any intervention with the airway. I still don't have a long time of feeling able to breathe well, but it's better than not lasering. I was referred to a radiation oncology doctor in December and Benito and I both talked with her about a treatment called Brachytherapy. Aparently one doctor says they've done this treatment previously on at least one patient whom had "somewhat" similar circumstances as I, and another doctor is saying no, they've never done this before, but they are willing to try it (in theory it should work). So the brachytherapy machine was down back in December and they said they expect it to be back up and running late January. I haven't heard back from them about scheduling it, but whenever it gets scheduled I am to be scheduled for a bronch and lasering no more than 5 days prior because they want my airway to be at it's most open during the brachytherapy. Now, here is what brachytherapy is as I understand it: Brachytherapy is a form of topical radiation to a specific area, in my case the stenosis in my right main bronchi. They'll go down in my lung with a tube and figure out exactly how far down said tube needs to be in order to be "sitting" on the stenosis. Once it's placed they'll x-ray and double check it's in the correct place and tape it down to my face so it can not move. After the tube is secure they'll thread a wire which has a radioactive tip on it down the tube and have it come out just at the end of the tube so the radioactive tip will be on the stenosis. They will leave the radioactive wire there for however much time they've calculated is enough time to be beneficial, but not enough to do serious damage then pull the wire and tube back out. The idea is that the radiation will break down the cells of the scar tissue that is my stenosis and after a period of time it will have broken all the scar tissue cells down and I'll have an open airway again. The tough part is knowing how much is enough, but not too much to cause the good cells that are my actual airway to break down. Oh, and I have a much higher risk of lung cancer after 10yrs they said if I do this treatment. So, it's something to think about, and it does sound kind of desperate, but I AM desperate. I am so tired of feeling like I'm ready for another transplant when I still have 15% more lung function than I did at the time of my first transplant. This stenosis at it's worse (which is like 90% of the time) feels like an extremely SEVERE asthma attack in which medications do not help. So, I ask you, wouldn't you be desperate too?
I have day 2 of my photo treatments for this month tomorrow and I need to get to bed. They still take a lot out of me and I feel like I could sleep for a few days after each set of treatments. Again, I'm very sorry I took so long to get on here and update you all. I hope you can forgive me... It's just been a very hard year already ;)
This year I'll be leading a Cystic Fibrosis Great Strides walk team again, so if you would be so kind to visit my Great Strides page....
www.cff.org/Great_Strides/leahbailey92504
Monday, September 19, 2011
Friends are Forever
Hi friends!
It's been about 2 months since I've posted my hopeful news about how great my lungs are looking since starting the photopheresis treatments. Now, 2 months later I feel about the same as I did in the last post. The relief I got from opening up my airway via bronch and balloon was short lived. I've been struggling with my breathing feeling really tight again and went to clinic this past Monday (9/12) and spoke to my doctor about going back in and re-opening it. Dr. Morrissey said he has been doing some thinking and discussing with other pulmonary doctors there at UCD about how he could give me longer relief in between these dilations. He suggested freezing away (as you would a wart) one half side of the scar tissue which is the narrowing in the airway and going back in a few weeks later and seeing if it's staying open. If it seems like it's working, he'll go ahead and freeze the other half, but he doesn't want to do the whole thing in case it causes a lot of inflammation and closes off the airway completely. So, I have an appointment for 1pm on Friday for a bronch and to see if they can cryo (freeze) the airway. My doctor did say however that if the airway looks as open as it was after they dilated it back in July (which I highly doubt it will), he will skip the procedure and wait until it's necessary again.
I have a set of photopheresis treatments coming up tomorrow and Wednesday mornings and am looking forward to having lunch with a close friend from the hospital on one of those days. Her name is Kathy Lorenzato and she runs the music therapy program at UC Davis Med Center. I had the pleasure of meeting Kathy on one of my very first admissions to the hospital back when I was 5 years old (23 years ago, wow!). Since then, I've stayed very close to Kathy and have always looked up to her and her big heart. Recently I was emailed by a reporter from the Davis Enterprise about an article they were wanting to write about Kathy, so I got to speak to this reporter about what Kathy has done for me and what a great person she is. The article ran in the Davis Enterprise yesterday and I'm very happy with how it turned out. The link to that article is:
http://www.davisenterprise.com/home-page/featured-stories/music-therapist-brings-comfort-and-joy-to-children-who-need-it-most/
(You may need to copy and paste the above link into your browser in order to go to the site.)
August was a tough month. I lost my closest, longest known CF friend on August 22nd. Kristina was 3 years older than me and had always been a role model to me. We met at the hospital when we were young and instantly became friends. Being a few years older than me, Kristina always went through the scary CF stuff before me and was there to hold my hand when I went through it myself. She had her double lung transplant at the same hospital I had mine, only 1 year earlier. At the time Kristina had her transplant is when I was told I would need to decide whether or not I was willing to be put on the transplant list myself. So Kristina was there to answer all my questions, relieve my fears, and remind me that I can do this too. Her strength gave me strength, her courage gave me courage, and her laugh would without a doubt make me laugh too. I had a very hard time with the passing of Kristina because I no longer have her to hold my hand anymore. I feel so much more alone now, but I'm sure she's up in heaven still rooting me on. I wasn't emotionally "okay" to make it to Kristina's rosary / viewing, but I (along with Benito and my mom) went to the Funeral and I'm very glad I did. Her service was absolutely beautiful, just like her. Her mother sang Amazing Grace and although I was in tears listening, I had to smile because I know Kristina was there in spirit smiling at how beautifully her mom sang the song. At the reception after the service I had the pleasure of finally meeting Kristina's father and her best friend Shannon, whom she used to speak of Every time I talked to her. Just before the reception was over I got the courage up and stood and spoke about Kristina as I knew her. About how strong I know she was and what a wonderful friend she was to me. I've lost more friends to this horrible disease than I care to count, but the loss of Kristina has left me questioning my own fate. You see, Kristina and I were the last two [living] CFers out of our group who grew up together, roaming the halls of the adolescent ward at UCD. Losing Kristina has made me even more determined to fight this disease and not let it win though.
Just a week after Kristina passed away was Benito's birthday and knowing how much we needed some cheering up, I surprised Benito with a trip to Santa Cruz and Monterey. I wanted to keep the destination of the trip a secret, all he knew was we would be gone 1 night and to pack for weather a little cooler than he's used to here. He was determined to do the driving, saying it would be fun to drive somewhere that he doesn't know where he's going, so I let him drive, giving him step by step directions until we pulled up at the Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk. We had a great time in Santa Cruz. The day after the boardwalk, we drove the 45 extra minutes to Monterey; somewhere I've always wanted to go (after reading all about Cannery Row in Steinbeck's Cannery Row and Sweet Thursday books). We didn't have much time to spend in Monterey because we had such a long drive home (Roxy was staying with grandma, so we had to pick her up on the way home, which added even more time), but we walked around Cannery Row and found a great place where Benito did some wine tasting. We plan on going back to Monterey when we can spend more time seeing everything because what we saw, we loved!
So that's about it. I'll write again when I have more to share.
Thanks to everyone who checks in on me from time to time!
Love & Hugs,
Leah
P.S.
In only 6 days I'll be celebrating my 7th Breathday (transplant anniversary)! Crazy how fast time flies!! :)
Kristina and I back before either of us had our transplants, May 2002.
Benito and I got our portrait done at the Beach Boardwalk, does it look like us? :D
It's been about 2 months since I've posted my hopeful news about how great my lungs are looking since starting the photopheresis treatments. Now, 2 months later I feel about the same as I did in the last post. The relief I got from opening up my airway via bronch and balloon was short lived. I've been struggling with my breathing feeling really tight again and went to clinic this past Monday (9/12) and spoke to my doctor about going back in and re-opening it. Dr. Morrissey said he has been doing some thinking and discussing with other pulmonary doctors there at UCD about how he could give me longer relief in between these dilations. He suggested freezing away (as you would a wart) one half side of the scar tissue which is the narrowing in the airway and going back in a few weeks later and seeing if it's staying open. If it seems like it's working, he'll go ahead and freeze the other half, but he doesn't want to do the whole thing in case it causes a lot of inflammation and closes off the airway completely. So, I have an appointment for 1pm on Friday for a bronch and to see if they can cryo (freeze) the airway. My doctor did say however that if the airway looks as open as it was after they dilated it back in July (which I highly doubt it will), he will skip the procedure and wait until it's necessary again.
I have a set of photopheresis treatments coming up tomorrow and Wednesday mornings and am looking forward to having lunch with a close friend from the hospital on one of those days. Her name is Kathy Lorenzato and she runs the music therapy program at UC Davis Med Center. I had the pleasure of meeting Kathy on one of my very first admissions to the hospital back when I was 5 years old (23 years ago, wow!). Since then, I've stayed very close to Kathy and have always looked up to her and her big heart. Recently I was emailed by a reporter from the Davis Enterprise about an article they were wanting to write about Kathy, so I got to speak to this reporter about what Kathy has done for me and what a great person she is. The article ran in the Davis Enterprise yesterday and I'm very happy with how it turned out. The link to that article is:
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August was a tough month. I lost my closest, longest known CF friend on August 22nd. Kristina was 3 years older than me and had always been a role model to me. We met at the hospital when we were young and instantly became friends. Being a few years older than me, Kristina always went through the scary CF stuff before me and was there to hold my hand when I went through it myself. She had her double lung transplant at the same hospital I had mine, only 1 year earlier. At the time Kristina had her transplant is when I was told I would need to decide whether or not I was willing to be put on the transplant list myself. So Kristina was there to answer all my questions, relieve my fears, and remind me that I can do this too. Her strength gave me strength, her courage gave me courage, and her laugh would without a doubt make me laugh too. I had a very hard time with the passing of Kristina because I no longer have her to hold my hand anymore. I feel so much more alone now, but I'm sure she's up in heaven still rooting me on. I wasn't emotionally "okay" to make it to Kristina's rosary / viewing, but I (along with Benito and my mom) went to the Funeral and I'm very glad I did. Her service was absolutely beautiful, just like her. Her mother sang Amazing Grace and although I was in tears listening, I had to smile because I know Kristina was there in spirit smiling at how beautifully her mom sang the song. At the reception after the service I had the pleasure of finally meeting Kristina's father and her best friend Shannon, whom she used to speak of Every time I talked to her. Just before the reception was over I got the courage up and stood and spoke about Kristina as I knew her. About how strong I know she was and what a wonderful friend she was to me. I've lost more friends to this horrible disease than I care to count, but the loss of Kristina has left me questioning my own fate. You see, Kristina and I were the last two [living] CFers out of our group who grew up together, roaming the halls of the adolescent ward at UCD. Losing Kristina has made me even more determined to fight this disease and not let it win though.
Just a week after Kristina passed away was Benito's birthday and knowing how much we needed some cheering up, I surprised Benito with a trip to Santa Cruz and Monterey. I wanted to keep the destination of the trip a secret, all he knew was we would be gone 1 night and to pack for weather a little cooler than he's used to here. He was determined to do the driving, saying it would be fun to drive somewhere that he doesn't know where he's going, so I let him drive, giving him step by step directions until we pulled up at the Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk. We had a great time in Santa Cruz. The day after the boardwalk, we drove the 45 extra minutes to Monterey; somewhere I've always wanted to go (after reading all about Cannery Row in Steinbeck's Cannery Row and Sweet Thursday books). We didn't have much time to spend in Monterey because we had such a long drive home (Roxy was staying with grandma, so we had to pick her up on the way home, which added even more time), but we walked around Cannery Row and found a great place where Benito did some wine tasting. We plan on going back to Monterey when we can spend more time seeing everything because what we saw, we loved!
So that's about it. I'll write again when I have more to share.
Thanks to everyone who checks in on me from time to time!
Love & Hugs,
Leah
P.S.
In only 6 days I'll be celebrating my 7th Breathday (transplant anniversary)! Crazy how fast time flies!! :)
Kristina and I back before either of us had our transplants, May 2002.
Benito and I got our portrait done at the Beach Boardwalk, does it look like us? :D
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